!Bad wife
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agk's diary 
12 November 2022 @ 11:35 UTC
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written on iPad
after an all-nighter
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I submitted draft final Synthesis paper 6 hrs late. 
Evy & I, who rarely quarrel, had a bad conflict last
night. My bad management of this stupid nursing pro-
gram stress made me a shit wife. I'm ashamed.

When she was more vulnerable than I knew I made a 
joke she understood to confirm her fears. Once said, 
I can't unsay those words. They're in her mind now. 

I'll pray and ask my sponsor what can mend. How do I 
show her my anhedonia'll end soon, marriage won't 
stay lonely? I'm afraid I broke something permanent,
essential to our marriage. Bad coping & marital
stress made me a bad student, but fuck school. It's 
Evy, Evy, Evy I love.