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June 05, 2020 |
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This last week with the renewed BLM protests and associated riots I've |
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been toggling mostly between two modes, preoccupation with current events |
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and working on planning out building my shop with an unprecedented fervor. |
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I was talking to the SO the other day. I mentioned that I've been |
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incredibly anxious lately an unable to concentrate on work, I explained |
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that with the COVID stuff happening and with the racial unrest in the |
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country that I feel on edge, watchful, and helpless. She responded, "Oh, |
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and I thought you were anxious because of my work anxiety spilling over on |
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you." She's a rather anxious person herself and is making a big career |
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transition, and has a tendency to disregard the type of advice I give, |
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she's stubborn, much like me. This all ends up leaving me feeling on edge, |
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watchful, and helpless. |
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Ultimately, I don't know that there's just one source to my anxiety, and |
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I'm quite sure all the problems are actual problems. I'll do what I can do |
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to help, and I'll keep earning a few bucks at my job, and I'll build out |
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my shop. My impact barely makes an impression with my SO, I have less |
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hopes for really making things move in centuries-old racial tensions, or |
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viral onslaughts. So I'll balance it all out with nailing sticks together |
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into a shelter that I can hole up in and nail other things together within |
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it. |
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